Getting back to Myself 

Two days before Christmas I experienced one of the most frightening things ever. I was diagnosed with a blood clot in my jugular vein and several in my lungs. I spent a few days in the hospital and I have been taking injections and bloof thinner since the event.

I am having such a hard time getting back to myself. I feel like this body is not mine. I am only 36 years old and just can’t get it in my head that I am gonna be on these medication for a year. Possibly longer due to test results and there being a possibility of a clotting disorder. It’s the strangest feeling ever. I don’t have any energy and I am not motivated to do much of anything. I plan to return to work in 2 weeks and I am so stressed out about it because I am having these weird feelings of fatigue and no motivation. Just a trip to the store wears me out and I wanna go to bed when I get home and sleep for 2 hours. 

I most definitely have taken my health for granted and I hope to make my body stronger and healthier in time. I just can’t get the motivation and wheel power back. I’m most grateful and blessed to be here and I know that. I definitely don’t want to take life for granted and it’s made me have another point of view about living life to the fullest because you never know what tomorrow will bring. 

I just wanna be me again, 

Mekeshia

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Kindness is like Snow

​Kindness is like snow, it makes everything it touches beautiful! 

Spread it around as much as you can! 

Back in the old days when people weren’t so rushed and had so many things to do, people actually visited their family and spent time with each other. I remember when my Granny was still living every Sunday after church everyone when to her house and spent the afternoon and had a big supper. Us kids played and had a great time while the older adults played horsehoes, worked a puzzle, played cards or sat around and drank and shared what had been going on the week before. Our family was so much closer back then.  I decided since my health issue that my I needed to see them more. So my husband and I went on a little adventure yesterday to spread a little cheer.

 We visited my uncle that just recently got out of the hospital strangely enough because he had a blood clot. We also went and ate dinner with my momma and stopped to visit my sweet Aunt Marandi. This is the most I have done since my hospital visit and it wore me out, but it was so worth it.  I plan to do a lot more of this in 2017. Life is really short and we only have a few moments to be here. Family is precious. 

During our little kindness road trip we also had got to enjoy some gorgeous views and scenery. We live in such a beautifulplace. It’s amazing what God had created for us to explore and enjoy. 

Crying Doesn’t Mean Your Weak 

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The strongest person I knew in my life was my dad. He was lineman for PIke electric company for many years and worked for several other companys. He was always building things around the house and to a little girl he was as strong as an ox. Especially when he could pick me up and pack me with one arm. To be a strong person my dad was the most tender hearted loving person anyone could have ever known. This being one of characteristics that I definitely took after my daddy. He was very soft hearted and so am I. You never knew when you looked at him there may have been a tear rolling down his check. I can cry at the drop of a dime. I remember when I was in grade school and it was my turn to read in front of the class. I would get so nervous that by the time I finished reading my paragraph I would be in tears. 

I could never forget watching Old Yeller with my Dad and both of us crying our eyes out through the whole movie. Many things can make it happen. Maybe a commercial on TV, a sad movie, if I’m mad, sad, upset, stressed, overwhelmed, happy, nervous, or other things I may have forgot to mention. 

I know in my heart there is a reason God gave me this characteristic but I’m not sure why. My uncle Beverly told me that my Dad would come to church and sit in the back row and cry through the whole service. He said he knew that God was reaching him because of this and he could tell dad had a humble heart.

 It can be a little bit annoying at times. I despise when it happens to me and I’m not able to say what I want because I will cry or when someone try’s to ask me what’s wrong and I cry even more. I do think it is most definitely what makes me who I am and I am certain God has a plan for my tender heart. Maybe it’s already in place. I know I have spent my whole life doing it and it doesn’t mean anything is wrong with me it means I’m human. We all do it. Some more than others. Sometimes when we don’t want to but can’t stop it. It’s just what God has planned for us to do. So if y’all see me crying please don’t pay no mind. I’ll be ok in time. Sometimes all a person needs is time to get it out. I’ve learned in time it’s who I am and just what makes me the person I am. I just have to go with it because I definitely can’t stop it I’ve tried many times. 

Butterfly Wing Collection

​During all my adventures this summer I’ve been collecting butterfly wings out in the wilderness. So I decided it was time to do something with them. It’s sad that butterflies spend so much time getting ready to get wings and only live for a few weeks. They are such beautiful creatures to work so hard throughout their lives for it to be so short. 

Then I thought of this Tom Petty song and it hit me that the warm weather will be over soon and I won’t be able to fly as much outside……..I better plan some more adventures! 🍃🌸🌿🌻🌞

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